Twins: What Do I Need Two Of?

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I have a friend who I am writing this post for, who is pregnant with twins! I am so thrilled for her and her family, and she doesn’t know what she is in for… double the joy, double the love, double everything!

So I haven’t written in a while! I have missed it. I went through an extremely stressful period, but thankfully we are out of it and slowly settling, in a NEW home! I have traded my stress for new stress it feels like, but I’m working hard to take it down so I can write on a regular basis like I wanted to. I hope you can forgive me for my lack of dedication.

Alright! So lets move on to this awesome new post! My friend asked what my must-haves were for twins and I realized that I did not have a check-list type post specifically for twins. What?! If you haven’t seen my amazing Baby Checklist, you should check it out. I outline in a really cute and handy printable a thorough new-baby checklist and to-do list. In this post, for my twin mamas, I’m going to let you know what you need double of, and what you may want to buy two of. Also, I’m going to include some things made specifically for twins and some tips for shopping for twins!

You already know you’ll need two car seats and two cribs, but what about everything else? Keep in mind that all babies are different, so when you buy two of these things, a great thing to do is to not open everything before they arrive. Only open one of each thing and see how each twin likes them. If you find that one of your babies only wants to use the bouncer, or doesn’t like her bassinet, then take the unopened swing back so you can save some money. Twins are expensive!

You may need doubles of:

1. Rock ‘N Play sleeper by Fisher-Price or a bassinet of your choice.

2. A simple Bounce Seat. Perfect for letting your babies kick and bounce while you get things done around the house.

3. Baby Carriers/Wraps if you’re going to be going out, these are a lifesaver! Some babies HATE being in car seats and they want to be close, so let Dad pack one of the twins around while you carry the other!

4. High Chairs or chair attachments seats like this one, made by Fisher Price!

5. Baby Swings.

6. Boppy Pillows– one for you and one for another family member or friend to use while they hold the other twin. Also great if you’re breastfeeding!

You only need one:

1. Bathtub

2. Twin Stroller- I highly recommend Baby Trend Double Snap-N-Go for their car seats! Its amazing and cost effective! Later on, I recommendBaby Trend Sit N Stand Double stroller for your toddler-sized twinnies! I had great success with both of these items and I didn’t have to spend a fortune.

3. Tummy Time Mat or play gym!

4. Pack N Play (optional)

 

The next few things I’m going to show you are items made just for twins!

1. Something you might want to look into for breastfeeding twins is a My Brest Friend Twin breastfeeding pillow. There is also a breastfeeding pillow called the Twin Z pillow that is really cool!

2. Take a look at Table For Two, an adorable seat to make feeding easier!

3. The Twingaroo is a baby carrier made for twins!

 

As far as everything else you might need for baby in general, please don’t forget to look at my ultimate checklist of baby items! Click Here!

Am I missing anything? Let me know! Thanks for reading!

The Best Toys for Babies!

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I’m a mom of four, so I’ve went through my fair share of trial and error when it comes to baby toys. Lots of wasted money on toys that they had no interest in at all. There are some cute toys out there, but you’ve got to think about your baby and what will entertain him or her the most.

Click on any of these pictures to go to its Amazon page. Amazon almost always beats the store prices so I’m saving you some time and linking all of the pictures to it’s specific page. Happy shopping! 🙂

0-6 Months

These are my personal favorites for babies this age. It’s such a waste to buy big, bulky toys, even if they hang on the car seat, because from my experience, babies just aren’t that interested in that giant elephant with rings on each foot. It’s all super cute but its just overwhelming to them.

Simple, inexpensive things are the way to go. All of my kids loved things that they could grasp and hold on to themselves. Things that were big were just too heavy and they never got played with.

Look for things that have bright, contrasting colors. A ton of pink stuff is cute, but babies love to look at all of the different colors. That also goes for things that are plain colors like tan and gray. It’s just not fun for babies unless it has another sensory effect for them.

Look for things that rattle, click, snap, or crunch. Try not to get things with buttons unless they are big and easy to press. At this age, their attention span isn’t really long enough for them to focus on a big toy like a ball popper. If you’re buying for a baby up to 6 months, these simple toys are going to be a favorite!

Don’t forget about things they can chew on. Teething babies put everything in their mouths! Toys made specifically for teething are great and its always good to find ones that are easy to keep clean.

6-12 Months

This is probably the best toy out there for babies and toddlers. It is a Fisher-Price Laugh & Learn Smart Stages Home Play Set. We bought one of these for my oldest daughter, and we still have it sitting in the living room right now for my twins to play with. It’s adorable, sturdy, and there are so many little things to do with it.

 

This xylophone was always a big favorite with my kids and it is easy to listen to, compared to some of of their noisy toys. Teach them to tap the chimes gently and this xylophone actually comes with a few little songs you and your baby can learn to play. 

 

Building blocks are my kids favorite thing to play with, and they’re 2 and 5 now and they still play with them.
These are great for babies because they are too big to be a choking hazard, like the single Lego Duplo block, and their size makes them easy to hold and put together.

My kids also loved these Melissa and Doug wooden puzzles.They’re inexpensive and sturdy enough for toddlers, and they encourage fine motor and hand-eye coordination skills.

Buying toys for babies seems like an easy task, just grab something in their age group and go. But if you want something that the baby will love, you’ll have to think like your baby and take note of where they are developmentally. If she’s trying to learn to crawl, buy a ball to roll across the floor and she will love trying to chase after it. If she’s learning to sit up, get something that will be stationary and won’t roll away from her. Whatever you do, encourage learning and creativity!

 

 

 

Don’t forget, you can click on any of these

pictures to go to its Amazon page, if you’d like to look into one of the toys further!

If you have a little Princess (they also make one for little Knights!), the Fisher-Price Little People Disney Princess Set is something you need to have. We ended up collecting every princess they have, and we also bought the Little People Disney Princess Klip Klop Stable. We love Little People by Fisher Price! My girls are 3 and 5 and still play with them. Imagination is so important, and the earlier imaginative play can start, the better. You can show your child how to pretend to make a pot of tea for a princess or how to “walk up the stairs!”. I loved seeing my girls light up when I would get down there and play princesses with them. I have little knights now and I already know I’m going to be buying more Little People stuff. 🙂

 

I hope you enjoyed this list! I want to hear from other moms out there. What toy did your child love the most? Was it a big toy? Was it a stuffed animal? Comment and let me know!

Share this post with your friends! Thank you. 🙂

 

Breastfeeding twins: What you need, and some tips to help.

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^Our twins Jackson and Levi.

Breastfeeding twins sounds like a near-impossible feat. So much to worry about. So time consuming. What if I don’t make enough milk for two babies? Can I do that?! Can I really nourish two babies.. Adequately? Will they be healthy? What if they don’t gain enough weight? How will I get any sleep? Is it even possible to hold two babies nursing at the same time?!

These are some of the thoughts I had when I was pregnant with my twin boys. Even as a breastfeeding veteran, I was terrified. I felt very intimidated by the thought of two babies needing me every three hours around the clock for their first few months of life.. Even though I have a combined four years of breastfeeding under my belt, I still felt like it was a crazy thing for me to expect myself to be able to do. I can only imagine what moms think of their abilities to do this who have no breastfeeding experience at all.

Im here to say this:

You can nurse your twins. Effortlessly.

It takes patience, determination, and willingness to alter your schedule and your tasks around your babies’ needs.

I’m going to give you the best advice I have, from my experiences nursing my sons. I hope it helps:)

During pregnancy To-Do’s:
1. Plan maternity leave if you are working. The more time home with your babies, the better.
2. Get a high quality breast pump. A lot of insurances are covering the cost of a breast pump, I highly recommend looking into this!
3. Learn and read everything you need to know about using the pump, and reading about when to pump and breast milk storage.
4. Get your basic nursing essentials from my list Breastfeeding Essentials!
5. Buy two Fisher Price Rock ‘n Plays. The closer your babies are to you at night, the better. There are so many good things about this little bassinet when it comes to breastfeeding. It’s portable, it’s safe, it’s comfortable, and it’s small. You can find one on Amazon by clicking here:Here

6. Do your HOMEWORK.

The one thing that I urge moms to do is read. Educate yourself about breastfeeding. The more information and knowledge you have before your start, the better your confidence will be about nursing to your goals.

Expect yourself to run into road bumps. Everyone does. Research all of these things and PLEASE only go to trusted sources for breastfeeding info.

My top nursing go-to website is Kellymom.com.
You should also seek support from your local La Leche League Group, you can find information here at LLLI.org.

These are some basic road bumps that I have had to deal with:

-correcting poor latch
-engorgement
-clogged ducts
-milk blebs
-mastitis
-nursing a sick baby(stopped up nose)
-nursing strike
*Another thing, don’t believe breastfeeding advice from just anyone. There are a lot of things people think are supposed to help with nursing but really only hurt your efforts. There are myths out there that may make your struggles so hard that you cannot continue. Your great aunts sisters niece might mean well, but only take their advice with a grain of salt. Do your homework. Do your research before you take any advice.*

When your babies are born:

– begin breastfeeding right away, as soon as you can. If it is possible, ask that absolutely no formula is given to either of your babies. If you can’t physically nurse your babies (if they need to be in the NICU, begin pumping when you can.)
-get in touch with the breastfeeding consultant while you are in the hospital and make sure all of your questions are answered and you feel confident about nursing your babies.
I was adamant about nursing both of my twins at the same time while I was in the hospital. I wanted to know I could do it. I don’t really know why I wanted to, but the encouragement from the staff at the hospital really helped me. They were really surprised that I was actually attempting it and doing it! And I wondered to myself, do most twin moms not try? I surely hope it is not the lack of confidence that keeps twin parents (or any parents, rather) from breastfeeding their babies. I realize that the amount of support that a new mom gets when she starts breastfeeding truly can make or break her. I just can’t assume most moms will toughen up and have that determination all by themselves. It was a miracle that I did, because I had no support when we had our first baby. But I can see that it doesn’t happen for everyone. If this post helps just one mom, I would feel like I have done my job for my entire blog, you know? I want all breastfeeding moms to know that they CAN do this and that they CAN get through the road bumps. You can.

Not necessarily tandem nursing, that’s optional. But the truth is, you’re going to have to do it at some point. Those babes are going to be crying at the same time, you’re going to realize that you have two boobs! (Lol.) and really, it isn’t that bad. Tandem nursing is an art. And you don’t need anything but a comfortable place to sit.

More on that later.

When you come home from the hospital, get a journal and keep it next to you and write down every poo diaper, every pee, When they nurse and how long they nurse. Their doctor is going to want to know all of that anyway, but it helps your confidence level. Knowing they are giving you plenty of wet diapers means they’re getting enough to eat. And when you write it down, you don’t have to rack your sleepy brain to try to remember the blur of the last week to see if he’s had a drop in pee diapers, when you feel discouraged that he’s not getting enough milk. (Sorry for the forever-long sentence just then.)

Another HUGE thing I want to tell moms:
Fall in love with water.
Water is going to be the key to success. You need to have great, clean, good tasting water. The Sam’s Choice bottled water at Walmart is just fine and it tastes great. I’m extremely picky about my water, so trust me on that one! Nursing my 8 month old twins, I go through three 32-pack bottled water packs in two weeks.
You need to keep a bottle close to you at all times. Breastfeeding makes you thirsty (obviously) but don’t wait until you get thirsty to drink. Keep one with you while you’re nursing and when you sleep. Another saying that is easy to remember, Drink when they drink!

Stay on your prenatal vitamins. Don’t stop them just because you aren’t pregnant anymore. You’re still nourishing their every need. <3

Keep snacks with you close by, and don’t get hungry. Don’t worry about dieting because one great thing about nursing is that those pregnancy pounds will disappear! I was still hanging onto 40lbs when the twins were born, and now I’m down to 15lbs. So keep your diet full of good, healthy foods and stay full, because you’re still eating for three. 🙂

Night-time Nursing:

One big thing I’ve learned nursing twins is if you want to get any sleep, nurse your babies at the same time throughout the night. For example, if Baby A wakes up at 2:30am, nurse and lay him back down, but wake Baby B up to nurse as well. That way, you don’t nurse Baby A and go back to sleep just for Baby B to wake up hungry in a half hour later when you just barely got to sleep again. That way both babies are fed and hopefully sleep another 2-3 hours before someone wakes up again. Eventually they’ll get on the same pattern and it’ll help you tremendously when you’re trying to sync up their schedules.

Now, some may not agree with me on this and that’s alright, but here’s another tip: let Dad do most of the work through the night. Let him do the diaper changes. Let him get up to get them. You need your rest. I know how hard it is not to do those things yourself but breastfeeding takes HALF of a mothers energy. Half. You need every ounce of sleep you can get. If you’re doing the massive task of feeding two babies with your body, he can change a diaper half asleep. He will be alright. You stay asleep when the babes go to fussing at night, let him get them a fresh diaper and then you can wake and nurse. Let him put them back to bed.

Speaking of rest, learn to nurse while laying down. It’s probably not feasible when they’re newborns but as they get a little older and they grow a little, side lying is best at night for nursing because you can fall right back to sleep very easily. You don’t have to get up and get a nursing pillow and situate yourself and then situate baby. It takes a lot of energy to do that half asleep and can make you dread night feedings.

Prepare for hunger. When my first daughter was born my husband actually made me a sandwich before we went to bed. It is kind of funny now that I think about it but it really helped. I would wake up starving and I would gobble down whatever I could get. Pb&J sandwiches would fill me up until morning. 🙂 You will get hungry throughout the night and if you can, eat up!

Whew I’m exhausted.
I will do a Part 2 post soon! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Blogger Babes Link Party

Happy 5th Birthday, Darlin’!

My oldest daughter, McKennah, turned 5 this week. I am so proud of her.. and its been a bittersweet time for me. It seems like days ago I was helping her walk around the house, or trying to get her to say “Babo”, her word for Elmo that I loved to hear her say. Now she’s learning the alphabet, and writing her name. She’s so smart and so beautiful. She’s going to be in kindergarten next year and every time I think about it, I get all teary-eyed! My sweet, beautiful baby is growing up right before my eyes.

She had a cowgirl birthday party. It made my inner child so excited because I grew up on the back of a horse, so you can imagine how crazy happy I was to hear that my kiddo wanted anything to do with horses. I would never push her into horses because true cowgirls are not taught, they are born. 🙂 and I can only hope that Ava and my boys have horses in their blood too!

The boys had fun hanging out while we were getting ready for the party..

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Then their cousin Mikey came to play!

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Kennah’s birthday was really on Wednesday.. and we took her to her favorite restaurant for lunch and then we made strawberry cheesecake cupcakes for her at home!

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Her party was Saturday. Some of her decorations!

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My sister Shannon and I played with Breyer horses growing up. I kept them over the years and we brought them down from storage to decorate with. They’re on her cake and we put them on the fireplace mantle. 🙂 These horses mean so much to us, and I can’t wait till the kids are old enough to play with them.

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Her cake 🙂

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My sister and I made them. I baked the cake but I could not TOUCH that icing. She’s an icing wizard! 🙂 And fantastic with cupcakes. She doesn’t think she’s good at cakes but as you can see, she’s freaking awesome.  Go to her website here:Mama Moments.com if you’d like to contact Shannon about her cakes!

 

Some of our guests.. 🙂

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Kennah was NOT excited about everyone singing Happy Birthday to her… but she loved her cake and she ate every bit of her plate AND her ice cream. That girl could live on ice cream. She loved opening her presents, though!

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She had a wonderful time at her party. She loved everything. I hope that I can get her buddies to come to her party next year. It’s always so cold on her birthday so a lot of people don’t really like to come and it makes me sad for her. She was born on a very snowy day.. I hope she doesn’t hate me for that forever. lol.

Thanks for reading. 🙂

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The Biggest Car Seat Safety Mistakes You May Be Making!

 

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The goal of my blog is to inform moms and dads as much as I can to help them enjoy their babies and help keep them safe! Safety is my number one priority. I see way too many car seat mistakes when I am out and about and it bothers me down to the core. My first instinct is to get REALLY mad, you know? Why would someone be so careless? Why would someone put their kid in harms way, when a simple safety check takes three seconds? The issue is that there are too many parents out there who are uninformed, who simply do not know the real and true dangers behind these mistakes. And its really sad because without that information, these children are unprotected, and accidents will happen.

When I was little, I grew up riding in the back of a pickup truck and obviously seat belts weren’t really a big deal. So why am I so adamant that my kids get the best car seat protection in my power? Because the world has changed. There are people texting and driving. There are so many people drinking and driving.  There are more people going way too fast But some of the car seat safety problems happen outside of the carThere are huge risks to your child’s safety in other ways that you may not be thinking about.

Using the Proper Car Seat- Check the height and weight limit of the car seat, and make sure your child is within those limits! You must have an infant car seat for your newborn, a convertible seat for your toddler on into preschool, and finally booster seats. Try not to graduate your child too early. I highly recommend Britax car seats, and you can use their website to help choose the best one for your baby. Just my personal opinion! 

Keep your child rear facing as long as possibleThere are countless studies PROVING that rear-facing seats are the best protection for babies and toddlers in the event of a crash. They have been calculated as being FIVE times safer than forward facing car seats. Please don’t rush your child into a forward facing seat. She’s fine, EVEN if she is tall. If you have a tall preschooler, she can fold her legs while riding in the seat. Having legs bent for short periods of time will not bother your child. If it’s a long trip, make pit stops to stretch those legs! Check your infant seat’s height and weight limits, and upgrade to a rear-facing convertible car seat when your baby turns one.

Make sure the car seat is properly installed Your local fire department will be happy to help you make sure that your kids seats are installed correctly! If you’re unsure after you install it, don’t hesitate!

Check those straps and buckles! Make sure the straps are clean and untwisted, NEVER wash the straps. The entire seat is made with fire-resistant chemicals (safe for your child) and if you wash it, you risk any part of the seat not being fire-safe. Please read your car seat manual to find the best way to clean your seats and straps.

The Chest Clip. Make sure you adjust this extremely important clip the right way every single time you put your baby in the seat. Make sure the straps are snug but not too tight. The reason why is that the placement of this clip during a crash can make the diffe

These are some of my favorite infographics that I have seen around the web.

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In the one above, the the upper chest clip is way too high, and in an accident, it can damage a child’s airway. The pink clip on the bottom is way too low, and it can injure your child’s soft organs. A big rule of thumb is to make sure the chest clip is at armpit level.

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Take Jackets OFF 737a07afe1140a22737bdef573b37376It might be tedious in the cold weather, to keep taking the jackets on and off in the car during errands. It can be dangerous to leave your baby in a thick jacket while in the car, because you run the risk of overheating, and in the event of a crash, that extra room from the straps you had to loosen to fit the jacket, well now they are too loose for your child. The puff from any jacket will instantly compress in a crash, and that means your baby is not secure in his car seat.

Car Seat Decor– I’ve seen them. I’ve been tempted to buy them.

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They’re frilly and pretty and so much cuter than the basic designs you see on car seats every day. But they’re unfortunately unsafe. Car seat companies send their seats through rigorous testing and any aftermarket item that you put on your seat may affect how the seat functions during a crash. I would much rather look at an ugly seat than hinder its safety mechanisms if there was an accident. 

This goes for head supports, shoulder strap cushions, car seat blankets (the ones you put under your baby and around the straps), anything that goes on the car seat. Just because they make it, doesn’t mean it is safe. If your car seat company doesn’t include it OR if they don’t make it themselves, DO NOT USE IT. 

SHOPPING CARTS.  PLEASE DO NOT put your baby on top of the grocery cart. It is not made for that, the clips DO NOT mean that it is secure. Death and critical injuries have happened because parents don’t think there is anything wrong with it, or that their seat is made for it. There are no seats made for grocery carts! And speaking of putting your baby on elevated spaces, keep your car seat ONLY on the floor, the stroller, or in the car. 

There is so much more information out there, that I cannot cover on one blog post, so I highly recommend reading the Car Seat Lady Blog. If you need help in any way, there are people eager to answer any questions you may have regarding the safety of your child in his seat. Remember always to talk to a trusted source for advice on car seat safety.

 

The Birth of My Twins!

I’ve been wanting to write their birth story for a while and I know a few who want to know how things really went. The pregnancy was incredibly difficult for me although on paper, it was (almost) completely uneventful-that which I am very thankful for.

I made it to 37 weeks with my twins. I know that is a huge a accomplishment for a twin pregnancy and I’m very proud to say I did it! It didn’t come easy. I was so relieved when the doctor told me that we were going to the hospital that night because my anxiety was back in full swing. Being pregnant with twins is extremely nerve wracking. You are feeling two babies move and hiccup and kick and you’re constantly trying to figure out who is kicking and you have double to worry about as well. I was mainly focused on Twin To Twin Syndrome (TTTS) which is common in the later stages of a twin pregnancy and I hadn’t been feeling Jackson move as much. During my entire pregnancy, they were in the same spot and the same sides. The whole time!

I was staying at home with my girls still too, and if you can imagine two 6lb babies sitting on your bladder and having two toddlers pulling you around the house all day, you can imagine the exhaustion I was dealing with! For some reason I thought anything could be better than this. Even two newborns. At least I would have my body back, right? Wrong.

After I got through shaking in the car, after my doctor gave me the plan for the induction, I called my husband and told him to ready the troops. The babies are coming tonight! I called my dad to let him know and my sister. I was to arrive at the hospital at 10 o’clock.

I went home and spent the afternoon with my girls and put them to bed. Soon after that my mother and father in laws came to the house to keep the girls overnight for us, and we headed to the hospital.

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^^ yeah. Big as a HOUSE. I know. I was actually already having contractions!

Several hours into the induction and I was doing really good. The pain wasn’t all that bad, everything was going pretty good. It wasn’t until it was about 6 in the morning that I started getting tired and hungry. The pain was worse and I was having trouble focusing on breathing through the contractions. With any twin delivery you have to have an epidural anyway. So I thought, why go through this pain. Get the epidural over with.

It was probably the worst pain I’ve ever felt, the worst epidural I’ve had. I had three, long horrible contractions during the epidural. It felt like it lasted for hours. I must’ve not been fully numbed but I’m cringing just typing this out so I’m gong to stop there.

When it was over, I finally was able to relax. I could deal with the fading pain of the contractions and focus on breathing again and close my eyes. Until I felt like I was being suffocated. I started gasping for air. I felt like screaming but I couldn’t and I couldn’t get anyone’s attention around me. I grabbed the arms of the bed and pulled myself up without any relief and punched the nurse button, feeling like someone was sitting on my lungs. Like I was going underwater, drowning. She finally answered and I got out, “I can’t breathe”

The next thing I knew there were two nurses beside me, looking at me, then looking at the screen. The head anesthesiologist rushed in and checked something and I was scared, my anxiety filling up my ears and drowning them out and all I could think was, God don’t let this happen. Please don’t let me go. I was afraid that I was dying. I heard them saying, “we can’t do that or she will bottom out.” My blood pressure did drop dangerously low and my pulse was getting very high.

I was having an anxiety attack on top of the reaction my body had to the epidural. They gave me something in the IV and told me to calm down. Focus on breathing slowly, tune everything out. And we watched my heart rate fall back to normal. I had to do that for hours and hours. My body was getting so tired and without food, I was losing all of the little strength I had left. With no rest and no nourishment, I was begging God to let me be ready. Let it be time, please.

Finally. 23 1/2 hours after checking into the hospital, it was time.

Everyone excitedly cheered as they rolled my bed out of the room and down the hall toward the OR, while my husband, fully scrubbed, followed behind me.

The OR was cold and bright, and I was scared of what I was going to endure in the next few minutes but I just couldn’t wait to finally see my precious boys. Nine long months of waiting, filled with worry and joy and everything in between. They prepared me and Josh. Telling me what was going to happen, what to get ready for, and then my doctor did a quick ultrasound to check on the boys again before it was time to push.

My heartrate was steadily climbing the more anxious I got. I began to push but I had no strength. The boys growing had literally separated my abdominal muscles and I had nothing when I tried to push. I had to push harder than I ever had, I had to give it all that I had. Every ounce of energy I used. But my heart rate was getting dangerously high. I was freaking out because no matter how hard I tried, nothing was happening. Barely, if anything. My doctor told me to calm down and breathe and it dawned on me, God I’m hyperventilating again.

With a little help from my doctor, my precious boy Jackson was finally born. Time stood still. He cried and searched for me, and I got to cradle him on my chest until a nurse whisked him away and before I could take another breath, my doctor told me to bear down again, NOW.

After another push, my little Levi was born. He was blue. My doctor gave him a good thump on his rear and he cried his signature Levi cry that I still hear today. God got me through it and my boys were born safe and sound.

Jackson Lane was born at 9:11pm 5lbs 6oz.

Levi Jordan was born at 9:14pm 5lbs 15oz.

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The moment after that was unlike any feeling I could describe. It was the same when my daughters were born. Time stood still. Everything around me froze for just a moment. All my worries. All my burdens. All of the tears and the pain and the struggle just melted away. Looking into the eyes of my first sons. Jacksons little nose and Levi’s sweet dimples. It was all so worth it.

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Theyre 8 months old now. It’s crazy how time flies. It feels like I just had them. Now I’m working on helping them crawl. I hope you enjoyed reading! 🙂